不完美

最近周遭的人事物都受到了某些病菌的感染
漸漸的都變得格外的傷感和感性
有時候看在眼裡，痛在心裡
雖說事不關己，但難免會有點小感觸

有些人事物，外表看似完美無暇
但真實情況並非我們肉眼所見的如此
再美好的事物也會有裂痕
終於有一天，就會支離破碎
傷痕累累也就是最終的結果

太過於主動關心別人未見得是好事
偶爾還是需要留給他人一些空間
有些事情還是不要強人所難的好
或許哪天對方會願意開口告訴你
早就該領悟這個道理了不是嗎

曾經很單純的以為
或許我並不會在意
其實我真的還是會care
還是讓那些感受往肚子裡吞好了
說太多也不見得別人能明白

不要給他人添下任何麻煩
就是唯一能做到的一件事
凡事還是忍耐和沈默會比較好
難過的時候一個人也會比較好
不需要他人的關懷和同情
要習慣總是一個人的感覺

總是喜歡以自欺欺人的方式安慰自己
只怪現實太殘忍，終究還是得面對
我真的沒有很emo
只是單純的寫出我的感想
就讓一切的一切都這樣吧


倒數56天
是我給自己的一個警惕




快樂可以有人分享，而痛苦卻沒有聲音。

Moody

Yes, I'm totally moody now×_×
something unhappy around me,
but I don't know how to mention it......
Just let the troubles go, leave me alone, pls=]

Well, I had just passed my school St.John's Farewell Party,
that was my last year to attend the farewell party=]
The day was so much memorable n enjoyable for me,
extremely thanks to all of the junior prepared the party for us,
it's great n I appreciated it♥

I passed my Mid-autumn Festival too,
had a very happy n memorable BBQ day in my friend's house,
all of us were making noise there coz too excited,
mayb the neighbours were disturbed by us, seriously=.=
Went back home on 12 a.m after dad called me,
thanks Zi Kean fetched me back, she's a good driverXD
and thanks to all of them celebrated Mid-autumn with me♥
Well, I need to concede that,
it was the most delighted Mid-autumn of my life=]

Went for a visit to University Tunku Abdul Rahman, Kampar,
with my friends n teachers yesterday=]
We found that one of the lecturer likes to say ALRIGHT,
one minute alright six time ad, really so exaggerate=.=
UTAR's scope is big n everything is clean n tidy,
ecpecially the library, so much cold n bigXD
But the lecturer still said not big enough=.=
All of us love the environment there,
clean, tidy, comfortable, fresh air, etc...
I consider to study there when I graduated....

We went for our dinner on 6.30 p.m at金陵酒家，
had a very delicious meal there=]
I love the Bread Chicken面包鸡 so much♥
it's one of the famous food at Kampar......
bought some specialty before went back home=]

SPM is around the corner,
two months is not enough for me to prepare it....
Sometimes I'll worried about it,
but sometimes seems like I'm over relaxing.....
From now on, I must try my best to study hard,
no more regret for my future.......
Promise n try to control myself,
less on facebook n I won't waste my time again!!

All of the SPM candidates,
let's fight for our SPM together♥

The other important one is,
I'll continue my keep fit plan,
bless me please=]

我真的感覺到了，
自己慢慢的被這世界放逐了。
無論我存在與否，都不會改變什麼。



I'll be happy...I want be an optimist...

Recently

I miss it badly~~~~~~~~~~~♥

So much boring n tired recently,

holidays always stay up late n what I got is,

my dark eye circle is getting darker n darker>_<
Can u just imagine how terrible is it??
I really damn need concealer to cover it,
OMG, hate it badly.........

Someone said I'm the 1st panda in Malaysia,
that means I'm very precious rightXD

Actually two weeks holidays are not enough for me,
coz everyday I just keep sleeping, dreaming,
watching TV, online, hanging out with friends........

Last night, I was laughed by someone when I was on facebooking.
ewsss, so ashamed about that,
I strongly denied coz I'm not a pig 囧

Well, I knew I had already wasted my time, seriously>_<
Actally I was supposed to study hard,
this was what my second sis told me=]
She adviced me to fight for my SPM,
and told me stop thinking about shopping>_<
LoL, I'm really speechless about that=.=

My school's St.John farewell party will held on this coming Saturday,
sure I'll attend with my friends coz we're the members=]
Both of us were stuck in a big trouble - our clothing....
whether we need to wear dress or a blouse with trousers?
Still confusing about that>_<

There's a BIG pimple scar on my face,
everyday looks at the mirror n sad about it,
I just always apply pimple lotion on itT_T
Hopefully that the scar can recovered as fast as possible,
God bless me~~~~~~~~~~~~=]

This holiday is gonna finish soon,
hate school reopen coz lazy to wake up early!!
And I don't want to face my Trial's results,
sure I'll HEART ATTACK when I saw my worst result>_<

What am I thinking now is still about shopping,
I hope can buy many new clothesXD
I also try my best to keep fit,
diet n keeps exercise,
I want a slim body's line~~~~~~~~

Hate myself, truly speaking.......
Perhaps I'm a pessimist,
everything around me is getting worse and worse,
it's too bad..............

If one day I suddenly disappear,
will you find me or miss me?
Perhaps I'm a weird person,
that's why I like to talk nonsense=]
Forgive me pleaseXD

I found that I fell in ♥ with this face,
O.o
It's cute right??XD



Sometimes, trouble is also a happiness...

假期快樂♥

各位，已經開始假期了對吧
其實我早在國慶日那天開始假期了
但，還是要祝你們假期愉快♥

哥哥答應要教我駕車了
但其實我還是很怕很擔心
順利的話明天應該會成功
真希望家裡的車不是那麼的‘高大’
要不然我就用不著那麼多顧慮了

最近的心情還是很複雜
不曉得該怎麼形容才好
但或許我真的會沒事
關於成績方面的事
就算多麼的不情願也好
我終究也得看開，怪不得別人
誰叫我老愛這自食其果的滋味

已經不想再對不起自己了
無論如何我還是會逼緊自己
希望我不會再讓自己退步下去
更不要讓自己後悔，真的
這次無論如何，我都得拼了

和姐妹約好說要去放風箏
從小到大還沒試過放風箏
我很好奇那是什麼樣的感覺
或許放了風箏心情也會愉快許多
希望我的煩惱能隨風而飛

我突然瘋狂愛上蹺蹺板
前幾天跟姐妹去遊樂場
玩蹺蹺板的時候不停大聲尖叫
其實我們都樂在其中，玩得不亦樂乎
那感覺真的很棒，偶爾還很刺激
一高一低的，一顆心也跟著高低起伏
懷念童年的感覺，無憂無慮的多麼幸福

這幾天連續一口氣在網上看了幾部小說
感覺上我的視力也漸漸受損
我似乎又再次陶醉在小說世界裡
只要一開始，就會無法自拔
這就是小說讓人無法抵擋的驚人魅力

明天晚上終於有個聚會了
和學校華文學會的委員們吃大餐
之後就會幫小明慶祝生日
但當事人還是被蒙在鼓裡
希望明天可以給他個神秘又甜蜜的驚喜
其實我不想當電燈泡叻

後天維終於要回來了
感覺上幾十年沒見面了，挺掛念他的
到時候當然還要跟他補慶生日
或許那也會是愉快的一天
還有我的電影，唱K和逛街
希望真的會如願才好

最近周遭的人似乎都談起戀愛了
搞得我莫名的開始羨慕
其實我並不是那種非愛情不可的人
只是偶爾，真的只是偶爾
看見別人幸福，心裡難免會渴望

那天，我把心中的顧慮告訴了姐妹
我是不是真的把自己的心上鎖了
感覺上每個想要嘗試接近我的人
都被我拒於千里，真的是那樣嗎
是不是心中的保護牆築得比別人高
所以才會讓人難以接近

曾幾何時，真的覺得自己變了
有時候看著鏡子裡的自己
也會莫名的感到陌生
這真的是我自己嗎

偶爾會期待遇見
遇見那個能改變自己的他
雖然，一直以來都那麼認為
沒有人值得誰為誰而改變
但既然真的有個人能改變自己
我希望他能讓我變得幸福快樂

其實我真的不是非愛情不可
只是一個人久了
自然而然的習慣胡思亂想
一個人久了
才發現自己並不堅強
一個人久了
才體會到孤單的滋味如此可怕

最後，很抱歉的是
我又嘮叨個沒完沒了
但還是真心祝大家假期愉快♥




突然很討厭自己，為何我那麼笨蛋，
為何我那麼醜陋，為何我那麼脆弱，
為何世界上會有像我如此不完美的人，唉。